It seems to have been awhile again since I've taken time here to write out my thoughts. Somehow here we are at the middle of September already! And tomorrow we head to our new fertility specialist...I'm pretty excited for this appointment. Just join me in praying for clarity after we meet with her! I really have no idea if we are going togo through any treatments right now, but it will be very good to ask some questions and try to get some answers. We're coming armed with a lot of information, so that'll help hopefully!
We've been praying that God will allow us to see the open doors in front of us. Sometimes we get so focused on what we think should be happening that we don't see how He is working. So I don't know...whether it's pursuing other forms of adoption, or just continuing on our current path. We're learning how to WAIT on the LORD. It doesn't do us any good to try to forge our own way because it doesn't lead anywhere on our own power. But it's tempting to try to hurry up life and hurry up the journey (that's what I'm best at!)...but slowing down, seeking God's will, and waiting on Him will undoubtedly be much more effective. I can't remember who's song it was at the Life Light music festival, but the words "Wait on the Lord" really stuck out to me. I've been pondering them since.
Psalm 27:14 says to Wait for the LORD; be strong and take heart and wait for the LORD.
As I've been researching that, other words that stand out to me are:
BE STILL
SEARCH
SEEK (my face, my heart)
And from a devotion I read recently: "Do not expect God to have every little task written down for you, or even for Him to whisper to your heart by His Spirit. God's leading and direction takes many forms. God leads though His written Word, through wisdom, through godly counsel, through circumstance, and by direct communication from His Spirit."
So we wait, and we WAIT. And we're learning bit by bit what both of those mean!
Thoughts?
Oh, Annette. Thank you for sharing your heart.
ReplyDeleteAs far as thoughts go.....
I have nothing to offer in the area of waiting on the Lord. I am often guilty of asking Him to bless the mess I made, rather than seek His face prior to the disaster....
But I will offer you this...
My bff works at Pope Paul xi institute in Omaha, and she specializes in fertility. What makes her and her clinic unique is that there is no IVF and they work on correcting the issue. Obviously, that is the simplified version in my own layman's terms. But if you are still in the explorations stages, I would definitely check her out...Dr. Kristina Pakiz is her name and she works with Dr. Hilgers.. Both would be great.
Praying for you all tomorrow at your appointment. Waiting on the Lord and His timing and plan can be difficult, but it is always best. Know we are thinking of you.
ReplyDeletepraying Annette . . . God ALWAYS knows best and his plan is ALWAYS perfect. Us trusing in what we can not see and what we do not understand is the hard part. No matter what we are feeling God is always faithful and SO MUCH bigger (and better( than our feelings. So hard to live by that each day though. Praying for clarity of mind and thought and a CLEAR open or closed door at your appointment.
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